What does it all mean?

My anxiety is back.  I can tell for I have been spending my nights reading and not sleeping.  This is a sure sign that something is up in the subconscious mind that hasn't quite drifted up to the conscious mind.  I was up until 3am again last night.  I haven't done this since the days of divorce looming.  In fact, I was actually on a routine sleep schedule.  So dear insomnia, what does this mean?

Well it could be a couple of things.  I am returning to work soon after having the summer off, and have completely lost my passion for my job.  I have zero desire to return to teaching.  So I hope that these anxious, unsettling feelings have to do with new manifestations that will arrive soon in my life.  I am also starting Grad school.  I haven't been in school for ten years.  Returning to papers and power point presentations is not something I am looking forward to, but the learning is.  Or it could be that I will have been divorced for a year on September 20th.  But I have had an amazing year, so is that really it?

I saw Eat, Pray, Love on Friday.  I had read the book probably a year before the demise of my own marriage, and even though at the time I wasn't aware that I would be on that same path just a short few years later, the book still resonated with me.  I feel that I have been on my own journey of self-realization and I am definitely attracting like-minded individuals into my life with the same principles and outlook on life.  I continue to follow the path of transformation, but today reached a point of frustration as another person with the same ideology showed up in my life.

So now I ask God, what does this mean.  Yes the people keep showing up.  Yes I was off track for a bit, but this weekend has put me back full force to the point of what does it all mean.  Where is this leading me, because obviously it is leading me somewhere.  I ask the Universe for the strength and patience to detach from the outcome and embrace what arrives, when it arrives.  I know it is happening soon.  A shift is coming, change is arriving. I am ready for it.  I. Am.