Believe

Either I am a stupidly naive girl or a cheesy, hopeless romantic. Either way, I am okay with it because it is what makes me, me.

I have been to see yet another romantic comedy where boy meets girl, they develop a love/hate relationship, fall madly in love in some spectacular setting and then express what we, the audience knew all along: That they would spend the rest of their lives in perfect, compatible, love-filled bliss!

That is what I want.

I am a dreamer, an eternal optimist even in the face of the most dire circumstances, I still want to believe. I want to believe that that kind of love is possible. Someone has it out there, don't they???

So today, it is my intent to open my heart and mind to the acceptance of romantic comedy love. In all its' cheesiness, odd circumstances, irrational situations...I make up that it can happen. And why not to me and my i'mperfect self. I am imperfect because I am human and I'm perfect because there is perfection in being myself; the only thing I can be.

I challenge you today to open your minds and your hearts to the cheesy, ridiculous dreams in your mind. May they have a base of love. May you leave the cinematic feature that is your life feeling warm and fuzzy inside. I know I do.

I love love. And I love you!

Love, Love, Love...

Love the one you're with...
Love will keep us together...
Love is a many splendored thing...
I will always love you...
Love, soft as an easy chair
Where is the Love?...
Tell me, the meaning of love...
Some say love, it is a river...
amor, amor, amor
Love is in the air...
It's Friday, I'm in love
What's so funny bout peace, love and understanding...
Look into your heart and you will find love, love, love...
I had a vision of love...
What would love do now?...
All you need is love...

Love would love to love you now!

Ah the song lyrics in my head. Love them!

Lights in the Desert

As my journey continued, I found myself in a state of not knowing who I was any more. So what does one do when the very core of your being has been rocked unstable? You go to Vegas of course!

I am blessed and ever so grateful for the people I am privileged to call friends. During the summer of 2008, I was a lucky girl and got to take two great road trips with two of these super friends through the hot California desert. These trips were key points in the recovery of myself. The thing about Vegas is that the city does allow you to be free of who you think you are for awhile. But I believe that freedom should come with people you trust. A lot can happen in the city of sin, and I am generally not much of a sinner. Previous to our summer trips, I loathed Vegas. I do not gamble, I don't like extreme heat and I didn't really see the point. Las Vegas gave me what I needed. A chance to let go of everything for a short time, to be someone I wasn't used to being. This caused some worry in people who had known me for a long time, but I assure them now it was for the best.

The most amazing part about it was Steven and Elena, the Blue Team! They may have seen me at some of my lowest points ever. The drunk dialing, the flow of tears (Blame it on the alcohol!). Things that I would normally keep very much under control. And through it all, I don't feel that they judged me, they were there to hold my hair if needed, to offer a steady hand and to give me comfort. I will always be grateful beyond words, and as I recall now memories of the car ride singing "Livin on a Prayer" as loud as we could, I am filled with gratitude once again. Thanks Blue Team! I love you!